Some people have been tagging this tv drama, along with humorous allusions to wives’ paranoia that it may have triggered… “Let the theories begin!”… 😀
So I got curious and checked it out. Great material, makes people think.
Anyway, I’ve been wondering, what exactly is a good reason to marry?
I used to want to swear my life to someone. Obviously, it didn’t happen… In 2011 I ended up concluding that… I was in love with a figment of my imagination… and he was the perfect projection screen. He was skilled at being a blank canvas… showing as little of himself as possible……
This must be what falling in love is. There is someone inside you that you fall in love with…. the other live human, he was a mirror….
So since then, I’ve tried to resist “falling in love,” because… it’s an illusion?….. I fell twice, but not deeply enough to lose my will to them….. I seem like a very hard case to crack. High walls, complete with alarm system. And guards…. and dragons.. .
I can’t be in love, I’m not human?
I avoided this topic… for a long time…. until this year… so strange..
I just want to go straight to my conclusion…… after leaving my ex last month… he was a polyamorist… back then I wasn’t sure exactly what I wanted from a relationship but now I do…
Not security. Not romance…. I mean both are awesome and preferable to their absence. Obviously. ….but just because either or both are present, was never enough reason for me to commit…. well I did once, but it failed…
Anyway the point of monogamy is, and I realized this after the very brief reunion with him…. it’s perfect if you have a long-term project that’s bigger than both of you? Sex magic and shared telos was all I came up with back then… the telos,… depending on your soul’s chosen path… could be for personal gain, or collective gain……
For a “marriage” to last… and not perish… the bond has to be eternal…. ETERNAL… not “amazing sublime chemistry emotional compatibility, etc”….
I think I’m looking for something eternal……. too quixotic?